i'm inspired to become a lawyer but yet at the same time i need to maintain my income

wat a tiring three days... finally it is over and i'm so happy
i'm looking forward to tuesday where i can attend classes again... though this time it will be me alone... without my everyday hang out college friends... sometimes without them is better because i can fully focus in my study... man is a ironic creature in this world... they need accompany but at the same time they want to be alone... and i'm one of those man... haha

trust is not a tough subject according to what my friend told me... at least it is easier than land law... hm.... actually i was hoping that it is as fun as land law... the more complicated it is the more interested i am... anyway because the subject is going to teach by ms puvanes i think in the end will become quite interesting also... ms puvanes teaching method is very suitable for me... very tensing and pressuring... but makes me more focus in the subject matter...

sometimes i dunno whether there is any people read my blogs... i dun feel like i want any people to read it but at the same time i wish there some people read it... haiz... like i said just now man is a ironic creature lor... i only wish some people will read it and some don't... too much to ask eh? anyway better keep it private as long as possible when there is people read it just let them read lo...

today i bought two very funny drinks from seven eleven... one is call anything and another one is call whatever... you don't know what you getting from the drink but you will buy it because you also don't know what to drink so you just drink wahtever it is or anything... the idea is pretty cool yo...

today... not bad

better write something when i'm still got the mood...
tomorrow everything will start all over again but this time everything will become harder a bit... i certainly hope that i can cope with every challenge that lay ahead of me...

sometimes i really considering giving upp my job because all classes now have become a lot more than last year plus all together in weekend... it definitely going to exhaust me till i dry... but if i dun work then there is no income... this is a lot more torturing than the earlier one... anyway, who cares? it just a part time job... it is only for now not when i graduate from my degree...

just now my friend mentioned something about concert... hmm... i wonder it is lavoce's concert... she asked me whether i participate in the "concert"... i really don't know what to answer other than asking her back "what?"... honestly, being in the choir for eight years is not a short period... but i can't feel any unity within the choir... everyone only socialise within their own group... perhaps this happen because the teacher herself is like that... she seldom talks to me... maybe there is nothing for us to talk... so i don't know... i'm not sure whether i like the choir or hate it... it so confuse... i find myself neither hate it nor love it... is a complicated feeling...

so i guess... this is the end for today

Questions... again

hmm... after long time didn't post new blog... i just wonder why i start to blog in the first place...
it just doesn't make sense...
now suddenly i sit in front of my laptop and start typing some word for my blog... my unpublic blog... perhaps the reason why i write these is because i just want to record something... scared that someday i might forget what i done today... like now i can't remember what happened during my primary school days... too many memories slipped away as i'm not aware...

again today... i checked her blog... but at least today she finally post something... though it looks like a lazy post... just a few picture and a paragraph... but at least better than nothing at all...
until today i still don't understand how i feel toward her... i'm not sure whether is it love or just because we are close and knowing each other for very long time... i tried once to believe that i love her but how come i didn't confront her like a lover do... it just so strange...

Ms. Meera said that i dyed my hair because i got a girlfriend... in fact, she is wrong... i never had a girlfriend before... i doubt will i ever have one... cause i have never felt in love before or i just don't know what it is... no one tell me what love other than what i read from books... i hope that one day i will understand what it is and feel what it's like... i hope... yea... i'm...

second year starting very soon... again another busy year is coming... it is a rare occassion for me to sit here and post a blog... but whenever i do... i write a lot...

i certainly hope that when i'm going to oversea in 2009... i life will change forever... i'll found my dream and my love... that's what i'm after for so long... money should not a big deal... i think it's going to be fine...

can i become a outstanding lawyer? i don't know... i don't even know whether law suit me or not as my language is not strong... perhaps it can be trained and become better after three years of degree and nine months chambering... i hope that i can become stronger than anyone out there...

no one shares my happiness or my sadness... i'm a loner... yes i am
alone in the dark talking to himself... try to pretend that he is living his life to the fullest...
trying to archieve something which himself don't even know what it is...
i'm confuse... so confuse... why must it be so complicated... can't it be more simpler a bit...
hope that somebody will come and guide him, love him, care for him...
what he wants is just love... as simple as that